Plans for the Weekend?
Get my 1'000 ideas for blog posts written down somewhere! Having so many ideas is a gift and also a nightmare sometimes.. One second I get THE idea and when I want to get back to it a bit later, I don't remember it anymore.
So I have been in a funk lately… and why I choose to actively stop it!
Long time no see, humans of the world!
It has been quiet on my blog in the past couple of weeks which made me feel really bad. I absolutely enjoyed writing and was always really happy as soon as I had finished a post. Actually the same has been happening with my life. I neglected many positive activities because life is challenging me. Life is challenging me a LOT at the moment. So much, I could write a book series about what is going wrong and get Peter Jackson to make 10 movies about it. But first, why did I never write my thoughts down here?
Interestingly, I had so many ideas for blog posts but somehow I never managed to write one. Constantly procrastinating, feeling worse about it every time. The same goes for many of my other hobbies. Until I reached the point where I asked myself: “how can all my positive activities all of a sudden make me feel bad? This is not what I want!”. At this point, I realized that some of my old bad habits slowly crept back in my life. Like mentioned before, I could write forever about which bad things happened, but I am not going to. You know why? Read my tips about what is helping me to stop this vicious circle below
My current top 3 tips for getting back in my flow
1. Use my planner more and PLAN my positive activities. Challenge myself every week: can I manage to go running 3 times? Can I make 3 nice drawings?
2. Tony Robbins. You guys, I swear, this guy… he is amazing! He made me realize (again) how important it is, to know you are in control of your own life, even or especially during demanding times. Depressive symptoms include mentally repeatg over and over again, what is going wrong, what could go wrong and putting oneself in the position of a victim, which in turn will make you feel even worse. But I know very well, there are at least as many good things happening. It is all a matter of your mental focus.
3. Stop judging myself. Why does it make me a bad person if X, Y, Z happened? I don’t make mistake on purpose. I am not a bad person, because they happen. I am not worthy any less, because I gain 2kg. For every time, I told myself this was true, it will probably need 2 positive thoughts to make up for it. Eventually good and bad breaks even and make me feel good.
I hope this might help someone out there, even if it is just a little reminder of stuff you know too well. We lose our focus so fast. But we can chose to get it back on track!
Take care of yourself. Don’t depend on others to do the job for you
Chantal
Yay! Finally I found the motivation to stop procastinating the updates for my blog. Some things might not be fully functional yet and look a bit funny, but I am working hard to get this baby going again! Stay tuned :)!
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Hello from a nasty little waiting house at the train station
When I was struggling, a friend advised me to read a little bit about buddhism and its way to see and think about life. I am not religious and was a bit sceptic at first. To me, religion includes the idea of believing in a God, who created the world and we must somewhat follow/please (IMPORTANT: I do not want to offend anyone! I accept your beliefs and kindly ask for respect for mine as well :) ). However I can understand that faith can be a personal resource of energy especially in bad times and create a powerful connection between people. Which was basically what I was looking for in my life. My friend told me not to look at buddhism like at religion in the way I usually do it and go about it with a sense of curiosity. So I got myself a book called „buddhist wisdoms for your every-day life“ (in German only, book review coming soon!). To summarize it briefly: After a short introduction into buddhism, it tells you, your motivation to read should not be that you can call yourself a buddhist afterwards (and I love that statement!). The main focuses on the 59 Lojong slogans. It also comes with 59 cards with these slogans on them, like this you can keep them handy and dedicate a day, a week, or whatever time frame to it.
Several slogans focused on the topic of accepting your current situation even if it is bad and instead of wasting precious energy by feeling anger and stress, try to accept the situation as it is. And oh boy, I am one of those people who can get really mad (and also really quickly) when having „one of those days“. You know, „one of those days“ when the universe and all evil on this planet made a pact against you? One of those days, you are probably better off staying in bed all day long ;)? We all have them, I am sure.
Here comes the part with the nasty little waiting house at the train station: Yesterday was an amazing day with a lot of sunshine. When I woke up this morning, I read a message from my sister saying something about snow. I thought „wait, what?“, jumped out of bed and looked out of the window. Just in time for the meteorological start of spring, it had snowed over night and was now dumping big, wet snow/slush-rain-flakes-whatever. After getting ready, I grabbed my umbrella and a warm jacket and left for the train station. Soon I realized that the sidewalks had not been cleaned from the slush and since I was not wearing rubber boots it resulted in my feet being soaking wet. At that point my spirits were already challenged, still I told myself everything will be good again as soon as I will arrive at uni where my dry sneakers are waiting for me. When I got on the platform, there was an announcement saying the train will be delayed. Delayed by 15min. 15min. 15 minutes of waiting in the cold with soaked feet. Try not to be super angry about that! That is like keep-calm level 3000.
Then the slogans popped up in my head and I knew, there was nothing I could possibly change about the situation. I grabbed my notebook and started writing this post. These little successful moments, turning the bad into something good or/and not wasting energy for bad thoughts are the important moments, I guess.
„A little goes a long way“
Best wishes and Woosah my friends.
See ya,
Chantal
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